I Wanna be Smarter!

Michael has suggested that I work on gathering my thoughts about why I want to go back to school, so that I have something I can look back on when times get tough. Something to help me push forward and to remind me why I am doing this. So with only 3 more weeks until my very first class starts, I thought I best be getting to work on this. πŸ˜› When I think about the reasons why I want to go back to school, the biggest one that stands out for me is that I want more knowledge. Well… duh. Being a homeschooling mother has put a pressure on me to feel like I need to know more and have more to offer my kids. I know that I am quite capable of homeschooling my kids with the knowledge base that I have now. I am resourceful and should my kids ever need instruction on something that I just can’t handle and they can’t self-learn, I have options. But, there are many days where I feel like even some of the most basic and simplistic information is just not in my database. Things I know I learned in school but did not retain. There is a HUGE part of me that wishes that I could answer more of their questions without the initial… “Well, I don’t know but we can find out.” So I want to be smarter! Yay! One reason down. I am also very genuinely interested in Sociology. Β Just from the bit of self-study I have been doing on the topic since I decided to go back to school… it has been very eye opening. Looking at the world, at how social behaviors are influenced and viewing even the most mundane things through your “sociological imagination”, is just pretty damn interesting. I have no clue what I want to do with it yet, but I guess I will figure that out as I go along. So if I want to learn all the Sociology stuff, I am gonna have to get through my general education. πŸ™‚ So I think Sociology is cool! Bam. #2. Well, I really think that is all I... read more

Holiday Craftiness

I busted my ass today to make some progress on all the projects I need to get done before Christmas next weekend! Where has the time gone??!! I feel like I have been very unorganized this year for some reason. Like my head isn’t quite with it. πŸ˜› However, today I took a nice little chunk off my to-do list. Of course, I have to share my excitement with everyone, so here it goes!   We finished ALL of our picture frames that are to be gifts for family! I think they turned out pretty cute. Chocolate covered pretzels! Yum! These would be my first official Pintrest project! Link to tutorial. πŸ™‚ I have to make tons more still. I do see some white chocolate in my near future… The Fernbank Gift Basket! We went Dinosaur themed for the basket to give the kids their new Fernbank Membership. πŸ™‚ Wooden dinosaur models to put together on the bottom and then the basket is full of dinosaur figurines. Tomorrow, I do believe we will start tackling the task of making tire swings and I am making a strawberry trifle for Sunday because my sister is coming to town!... read more

Mondays… Bleh

I feel slightly proud of myself today. Despite the Monday BLAHS, going non-stop today trying to get things done that needed to get done…. I managed to not let myself get too overwhelmed. My kids trashed my house and it didn’t hurt as much inside as it would have in the past. I didn’t circle around them trying to pick up the messes as they made them. I didn’t run to clean them up as soon as they moved on to something new. Well… not immediately anyways. πŸ˜› A day like today would have normally had my anxiety levels crazy high and I would have been snappy and on the verge of melt down at many points. But I held it together! Progress? Or fluke? I don’t really care. I will take it. I kinda loathe Mondays in general. The catch up on housework and other things that tend to get blown off over the weekend because we aren’t here much is a total pain. Now throw into the mix of Holiday stuff and that just makes things more fun! Yes. That is sarcasm. We did get 3 picture frames painted and decorated. They turned out so cute!!! I am tempted to take a picture of them but I don’t want to ruin the surprise for my family that will be getting them. πŸ˜› So now only…. 5 more to go. Sigh. Not to mention all the other stuff I have to make. Christmas parties coming up…. Another sigh….. I even managed to do yoga with the kids today. And when I say I did yoga with the kids today, what I really mean is… that I did yoga, while the kids pulled every book they own off the bookshelves and Haden repeatedly interrupted me to tell me stories or ask me questions. Cheeky Baby was halfway interested enough that she did attempt a few poses so I guess I won’t call it a complete FAIL. So I have decided to move this blog over to WordPress and give it a bit of a revamping. I would like to change the name of the blog but don’t have any wonderful ideas floating around in my head, so I am open to suggestions. Anyone? I found the greatest theme for my blog, only to realize that it wasn’t set up for the most recent version of WordPress or some other bullarchy. It didn’t quite work right and I didn’t want... read more

"It is best to learn as we go, not go as we have learned."

I have been contemplating this blog for a while now but haven’t been sure exactly what to say or how to say it. I guess I still am not sure…. I had mentioned in a prior post about feeling very disconnected from the “birthy” world and I know that there are many reasons contributing to that but the one that I wanted to blog about is one that feels almost wrong to talk about. Like I am breaking an unspoken rule. Hence, why it has taken me so long to do this. I feel like if there is any hope of moving forward and retaining some of my past birthy self, then I need to start working through and processing my feelings. I have lived and breathed birth for the past four years. It has been a passion. It has been an obsession. Educating myself, feeling empowered by that and then working with families to inspire empowerment. There used to be nothing more exciting for me than watching a couple have an AHA moment. What has changed that? I am not really sure what set off this round of negativity I am on at the moment, as it is recent. If I look to the past though, the very first time I had small doubts about my work was during my pregnancy with Addison. I was reading around on an unassisted childbirth site and happened across the opinion of someone who doesn’t think doulas are a good thing. At the time the idea kinda shocked me. I mean, how could doulas not be a good thing? She went on about how doulas, while their intentions are good, serve the purpose of being a tool of the system. That ultimately what a doula accomplishes is to make women feel good about their births. Isn’t that the point? Her point was that women that would have been traumatized by their births will leave the hospital having positive memories even when traumatic things were done to them. That in the end doulas are helping keep women in line for the doctors and further making sure that they don’t question the paradigm of medical thinking. I don’t completely agree with this assement. I am not in any way saying that I think women should not have doulas, so that when they get worked over by the hospital, the nurses, the doctors or midwives that they damn well know they got screwed. Β Or even... read more

The 2011 Family Photo Album

So after spending a couple days surfing through almost 2,000 pictures, choosing our favorites and building the book… our 2011 album is finished! I am super pleased with the way it turned out. πŸ™‚ Untitled from Mike Bowden on... read more

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