For some reason today I have an overwhelming need to be doing something. As in SCHOOL. This would be the real me creeping in through all the hard work I have been doing on myself lately. That person who wants to control everything and I keep thinking about all the things Haden probably should be doing and learning and how I am not doing enough to facilitate that. This then leads me to try and I have already had one FAIL for the day because I surely know how to suck the fun out of everything when I start thinking more about what I need vs. what is really going to work.
It is just one of those days where I am simultaneously disappointed in myself and at odds with the person I want to be and the person that my compulsions strive for me to be. I really could just use some positive reinforcement that it will all be ok.